Thursday, May 22, 2014

Life is so fleeting

Life is so fleeting. Situations can turn in a moment, and with that, life is changed forever or it's over. I wonder why we refuse to enjoy what we have.  I get the ego might be responsible for alot of this obstinate behavior but why are we so set on seeing our humanness as a negative.  Yes, I know, it has been honed by society for centuries, for the manipulation and control of the masses but really, still? In the year 2014, in all our brilliance (you all know I firmly believe we are all brilliant and equal) we still refuse to be grateful for this limited time on earth and set out to be better, bigger and more than being human.  What the *#@&?!! grrrr.....


Yes, sometimes I really do want to scream and jump up and down (thanks and say "Come on! You got this!!" but then I know, somewhere inside we all know this and others don't need me to say this.... you know, not all people want to know they have their solutions.


But yes, you do, you have your own solutions.  Yes, I know others tell you, you don't, and you may believe this, but you do.... you really do.  And yes! Sure! We all can seek out those professionals in their field and those we admire for their input! Yes! And then take those views and allow yourself to see how you have the knowledge to follow through on your own, and do not need to use another as an aid.  We are really good at life. 


If you ever need to reach out do, you are not a victim, you are not alone, and you have you.  Plus you have all those you are naturally connected too (that happens to be anything energetic, which happens to be everything... pretty cool I'd say)


Do not think you need to stop living to live.  We have very few examples of leaders who also were parents and married to look up too and we seem to have none who have found the balance of family, career, faith, finance and self-perception.  Sure there is what we see, but then if you look closer, do they have what you would want? I have not seen an example of what I want, but I know what I want, and I have spent my lifetime doing my best to recognize the fact that what I am seeking is always present and therefor does not need to be sought.


I do not believe we should ever stop living to "live".  I believe prayer should be practiced constantly, as well as meditation.  I believe the peace is found each moment in my mind and in that same moment there is gratitude.


I believe we are not less perfect for being human, and thus the energy we are born of (Christians ~ in the image of God, Atheists ~ why wouldn't we be perfect? science ~ energy just is, and it is both negative and positive but regardless, perfect). I cannot wrap my head around why we would be here to gain more than we are.  We are born perfect and we die still perfect.  I do not get how just because we are given an ego, we become less, when the ego adds to our humanness, it is not a disability or evil.  Sigh. 


Many of you have heard me say, "we are not here to learn, we are here to experience." the statement above is why I feel this way.  We are here to experience being human for a very finite time.  It is a gift.  Why oh why can we not get this? Our ego, although a pain in the butt, has allowed us to be a separate, individual, self-existing energy force.  That is its purpose, to keep us separate.  Thus we cannot let it lead, as the other part of us understands our oneness with all that is in existence.  We need both this positive and negative side to be whole.


Now add in our emotions.  When we are dead, we have no emotions. Why would we try and stop the ones we call negative? When once we are dead we no longer have them. I don't want to be dead before I am.  I want to feel.  Yes, any of you who know my past, and me know I have felt some pretty crappy stuff and lived through it all.  I am grateful for these extremes.  Are they fun? Hell no! But I do not believe they are suffering or I am being punished.  It is what it is because it is all meant to be part of the experience of being human!! And I don't want to not feel dead while I am alive.


When I set out my vulnerable self into this world, yes, I feel bombarded.  Yes, I want to hide.  I am no different than you!! Yes, I sometimes find this world way to noisy and needy and yes, sometimes I feel needy too!!!! I am human.  And I know for fact we are all seeking the same thing.  To be loved and accepted.


So with all that I have just said it comes down to one simple thing. Give yourself the one thing you seek, acceptance and unconditional love. Look in that mirror and tell yourself everything you wish others would say. Listen to yourself when you are in strife, pain and peril. And most of all, ask you first. Show yourself, that above all, you believe you have the answers you seek. No matter what you believe created this world, you can always believe in one thing, and that of course, is you.

AuKeeRa Rayne

Tuesday, May 20, 2014

The demise of gratitude ~ Religion/sprituality, credit & electronics ~ my personal observation

In my personal observation I see three main things fueling the ego and
thus destroying the spirit and making us completely ungrateful over
the centuries and in very recent times.
     Religion and spirituality. What?! yes. It is the one thing telling us
we are not good enough, in need of fixing and in need another human to
tell us what we need and to fix us. It is the sole reason for most
people's despair and total lack of gratitude as they are not good
enough the way they are for their God, so what they own is not enough
either. (note we often pray for what we think we need or want, rather
than being grateful for what is already there)
     Credit. Yup. Financial credit. Originally no one could get credit
unless they could afford to pay it back. This required the population
to prioritize their funds earned and purchase what they felt they
required. This created a great sense of pride and gratitude as people
saw their hard work created the life style they had as well as
everything in it. Now, thanks to credit, people aren't grateful for
what they have as they always want more or better. There is a full
disconnect now between what we earn and what we own due to mainly
credit as well as no longer touching our money (direct deposits and
then debit cards don't give us the tactile experience of seeing the
actual money we have earned, so it might be an idea to use cash to
purchase so you can see and give yourself credit for what you have
earned, saved for and are now buying). If we figure we can't afford it
we buy it anyway thinking we will pay for it later not realizing how
much we end up paying then feeling we are working for nothing. Credit
is really a lose lose, where as earning, saving and living within our
means results in pride and gratitude, if we can ourselves believe it
is enough. Greed, easy credit and the ego is one heck of a spending
And finally, we think electronic communication is excellent and for
some things it really is, but within all this ability of computers and
smart phones, work never stops and communication has been limited to
key strokes, again, good as in supposed productivity and really good
for being able to speak to those you want to more regularity via tx
and email, however, we now have an entire generation who looks down,
literally. Their gratitude for their simple existence seems dissolved.
Look up? put down the device, go for a walk? talk face to face. Be
grateful we still can see, hear, touch, smell? I don't know, maybe I'm
missing the mark, but this is what I see.....
Thanks to this combination, of old religion, new spirituality, credit
and electronics, we now hear constantly of people who don't think life
itself is enough, don't wish to work for their money which pays for
their life and everything in it. We hear people saying do what you
love for work, enjoy your life, yolo, it's not about the money, and so
on while multimedia spread this message at light speed. I hate to tell
you but it is about the money, and the gratitude we have for it, and
even though you only live once, what is life without the gratitude for
every small moment in it?
Life in a first world country is no different than life in a
developing country except the fact not only do we have the means to
earn money, the access to purchase items and the downfall, we have
access to credit. In a developing country, they are forced to live
within what ever financial means they can get. In our first world
existence we don't seem grateful for the simple fact we can earn our
money in the first place, nope, we decide we don't want to earn it and
then further, we want more and aren't grateful at all for what our
earned means can afford to buy because for some unknown reason we have
already decided it is not enough.
I honestly do not know how our society will bring back or ever develop
true gratitude. I will just wait and firmly believe, one day people
will pray to a God they know accepts them as perfect and enough, and
people will know their God supports and believes in them, and always
gives them exactly what they need, not want they want, and the masses
will be grateful. That people will stop incurring debt and decide to
be proud and grateful for their hard work and what they purchased with
their hard earned money, and I firmly believe we will learn again to
be grateful to look up, put down a device that has become an
addiction, returning to the gratitude for the sounds of nature, each
other and the beauty of this world.
AuKeeRa Rayne